DDDYC P4: I'm Still In This

Hey.  I wanted to let everyone know that I am still doing the Challenge even though I have not been updating my food logs daily.  And if I don't visit your blog don't take offense.  I am just not in an overly chatty mood.

The cold weather is messing with my mood and my appetite.  I made some temporary changes (until Houston returns to normal, warmer weather later in the week) and flipped my eating to where I can have breakfast for dinner to satiate the insane hunger that is going on.  I don't know why but I have a hard time wanting to stay on track when it is cold.  I've got hunger and cravings galore.  I'm not giving in to them, but they are seriously starting to be a pain in my ass.

As of this evening, Houston is supposed to return to the mid 60s by Saturday so I am hoping to get back on my normal schedule by then.

And the breakroom/kitchen at work?  Today, strawberry and cream cheese danishes and two boxes of donuts showed up.  All I want is to refill my water glass and I get ambushed by this crap.  This insanity is just not helping the mood or the cravings either.

The Joy Of Cold Weather Cravings

When I weighed 370 lbs and had all that nice voluminous fat to keep me warm I used to love winter because sweating just didn't happen.

Now?  I am wondering how in the hell long Houston's winter will actually be because I am a) cold as all get out and b) my appetite is on overdrive.  370 lb me didn't worry about calories or even about keeping to a diet unless it was whether to have a pint of ice cream to close out the day or not.

All that to say is that I don't like the cold weather because it makes me hungry and I crave fried chicken and macaroni and cheese and all the other high fat, high carb foods that made and kept me fat for two decades.  I'm not going to eat all that stuff, but man I am wanting it REAL bad.

Another thing that is making me cranky and, really, the first politician that supports a bill to ban the presence of cheesecake or Girl Scout cookies from workplace break rooms across the land I am voting for.  If have to move to their state and/or district, I will do it.  It is frakking January, the official sponsor of diets, and our kitchen at work has been littered with crap all week long.  It just ain't right.

/ rant

Going ApeSh*t On The Scale

I'm just letting y'all know that if you see on the national news that some woman in Houston went apeshit on a scale tomorrow morning that would be me.

The water I am drinking is good.  It is healthy.  I get the maths of it all.  I do.  I am a math kind of girl and do analysis for a living.  You do not need to tell me about the maths.

But the scale is punishing me for it.

I've been so on plan this week, even through some hard times, and this piece of metal and plastic is being a real asshole about giving me a number I like.

And through it all I am still DRINKING THE FUCKING WATER!

Yes Allan, I still feel ya.