I resolve ...
Oh, wait a minute, that isn't right. I don't do resolutions. I mean, seriously, in the entire history of humanity what are the number of people that have actually kept their New Year resolutions? It has to be pretty freaking low because no one I know has done it and I am sure that it is the same for you.
So no resolutions again this year.
What about goals? Well, I've got some and they have been on the list for a good while now. Some are being actively pursued. Some are on deck waiting to have their turn.
Goal #1. In the here and now I am working on shedding 200 lbs. As of last week's weigh in this goal was 69.60% complete. This is the big goal. It is number one on the list and quite frankly the one that I never thought I would be able to accomplish. Yet, here I am planning for a future at goal weight. There are times when I want to go back to 370 lb me and give her a hug and let her know everything is going to be alright. I still feel her pain. It haunts me to this day because it shaped so much of how I relate to people and view the world at large. I'm working on fixing that. It is like goal 1.1.
Goal #2. I have opened a savings account to fund my reconstructive surgery. As of the first paycheck this year I am actively dumping as much money into this account as I can reasonably part with every time I get paid. The budget for this is still being worked out. There are things I don't actually need and there are some that I'm not giving up. I figure I have a few more days to get this in order and then it is go time. The thing about losing 200 lbs that you have carried for two decades is that there is a lot of skin that needs to be trimmed and tucked. It has always been my plan to get a complete overhaul once the weight was shed. Well that time is getting pretty frakking close. I am going the whole nine yards here - total upper and lower body lifts and a slight breast reduction. I don't need to be a DD anything. I'm thinking a 38 C/D will suit me just fine.
Goal #3. Go back to school. Other than being obese for half of my life this is my biggest regret. I don't have a college education. Thankfully the good Lord graced me with above average intelligence and I have been able to carve a very satisfying career for myself without that piece of paper. Yet I still want it. I need it. I will spend the first few months of this year wrapping up the weight loss and then enroll in classes for the summer semester. A trip to the counselor's office will be in order to see if I need to start over or can retain my previous credits. I want a degree in Computer Science (my chosen field) but I think I am going to take some interior design classes as well. I spend a lot of my time watching design shows or surfing the net reading up on color theory etc. Maybe I will minor in that? We'll see.
Goal #4. Learn to drive. I know, you are all like "WTH! You don't know how to drive?" Nope. I don't really need to drive. I live in a major city (Houston) with public transportation. I always set myself up where my life can literally be spent within a 10 mile radius and I'm comfortable that way. But I think it is time. There are things I want to start doing that are probably going to involve having to drive so this is the year. Plans are in the works to get lessons from a friend.
Goal #5. Europe. This is the reward for losing the weight. I have always wanted to go but an incentive for the weight loss is that I actually go once the lbs are off. A late summer or early fall trip to Ireland, London, Scotland and Paris is going to happen.
So there you have it.
2011 is going to be a great year. I am going to get to goal weight, have surgery to complete the new me, continue my education, learn to drive and take a European vacation.
What are your goals?
Oh, and Happy New Year y'all!